Thursday, November 15, 2012

pregnancy…ode to the joys of it this thanksgiving


i realize it’s been 5 months since i last blogged…oh where has the time gone!?

let’s see…with a vacation to the Caribbean followed by eight weddings since finding out we were pregnant, three of which were out of town in Austin, TX, NY, and Spokane, WA...then going through the short sale process on our new home, closing on the house, renting the house for six months, followed by a month-long remodel before moving in… registering for Hannah, maternity pictures, baby shower, birthdays and more birthdays, out of town guests etc..…phoof! hold the phone. i'm taking a breath…let’s just say it would simply be an understatement to say things have been ‘busy'

but in spite of the all the chaos, it has been a truly blessed transition into this nesting period for a couple months before our little angel arrives. my incredibly wonderful mother-in-law had come out for a week to help us unpack and settle in, share in baby shower joy…and then as quick as she’d arrived, she was gone. i didn’t quite know what to do with myself. all settled in to the new home and for the first time in months, able to sit back and relax. no longer nannying, finally able to embrace the role of ‘stay-at-home wifey’ and ‘soon-to-be mommy’

anyone who knows me well, knows that i don’t sit still. up until now, my life has been full of social activities and outings. i’ve been this way, a busy body that is, since as long as i can remember but in more recent years i had started dreaming about and longing for the slower life…and voila! i do realize that even if i tried to get out more than i have lately… 8 and half months pregnant-- the body and brewing baby just don’t allow it, back it up mom” she is constantly telling me. hip pain...lower back pain…fatigue...sleep deprivation…shortness of breath…dare i say again, ode to the joys of pregnancy?

then i catch myself…every time“Lord, forgive me” …how can i complain when i have had an overall easy pregnancy, even more so, this beautiful life and blessing from Heaven growing inside me…a gift that many people dream of and won’t ever, for whatever the reason, be able to experience. i must always remember to count my blessings, especially this major one. in these next 5 weeks of pregnancy, no matter how difficult it may get and how anxious i may get, i must not take for granted these moments. instead, i will continue to get out of bed to pee 15 times a night and remind myself to thank God for it.

 in the wee hours of the morning when she’s feeling like a gymnast and decides it’s summersault-time on mommy’s bladder, i won’t get mad, i’ll get up. i will continue to sit with her in her nursery. i will rock with her in the glider and let her feel my hand as i rub my belly. i’ll let her hear my voice as i talk to her and read her Bible stories from her own personal picture Bible. i will sing to her until she’s back asleep and tell her how much i love her, and as much as that is, only Jesus will ever love her more.

i will not take for granted these last 5 weeks, every turn and kick she makes, no matter how painful it may be… our quiet moments together and our moments filled with song as i play her favorite-- classical piano --on my phone, resting it on my belly as she begins to wake up and dance (oh boy does she love  music already!) and though i can’t see her face, i can ‘see’ her face and she is always making me laugh…i will not take these moments for granted…ODE to the joys of  pregnancy! i love her with all my heart and thank God for this time…finally home (as close as living here on earth can come to the word) my real home in Heaven still awaits…but it is really good to be home.

 i am thankful that i can be the housewife i’ve wanted to be….cooking every night and enjoying music, conversation, a small glass of wine =] and sit down dinners with my husband when he is home from work. he works so hard to provide for us, and my appreciation for him has never been greater…cleaning the house, doing laundry...let’s just say i never thought i could be so happy doing it...and most of all, i am especially thankful for the quiet time i get to have with God where He continues to speak to me revealing His love, His faithfulness, and His plan for my life.  no ‘desperate housewife’ here, no sir! just one very blessed  happy housewife and mommy-to-be.

what are you thankful for this Thanksgiving? we are only human and life can seem overwhelming at times but i realize just how content in life i am, not just around Thanksgiving, but every day as i learn and re-learn how to stop being the victim, and dwelling on what i don’t have, how much pain i may be in, or how “simply miserable” it all is… “what’s one good thing that happened today?” i ask David whenever he's stressed out and when it’s the other way around, i want him to ask me the same question. our conversations usually take a turn for the good... for the grateful, the ‘happy’ and content. when i stop to really think about what i have to complain about in comparison to SO many others in this world, i usually find myself planted face down feeling pretty humiliated and humbled before God. i pray that my faith in Him grows in spite of any circumstance or hardship that i may ever experience in life…and i thank Him for always having the “good” in mind for me, even in the moments i fail to see it myself.

“and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose” romans 8:28

for the love and support of family and friends…an absolutely devoted and loving husband…a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and plenty of food in our fridge, the freedom in expression of my faith as an American and to the men and women who have fought to protect it, the simple pleasures of life, the beauty of the world around me…and especially this beautiful life that is growing inside me and will soon grace us with the joy of her physical presence in our arms…thank You Jesus for it all!

sooooooo...ODE to the joys of His perfect love and blessings in all of our lives! let's count them together =}

Be Blessed with Love,
Naomi Rose 








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